'Myself' in the Bible

“As I have seen, those who plow wickednessAnd those who sow trouble and harm harvest it.

“Is it that I have no help within myself,And that success and wisdom have been driven from me?

“If I have sinned, what [harm] have I done to You,O Watcher of mankind?Why have You set me as a target for You,So that I am a burden to myself?

“[Though] I am blameless,I do not care about myself;I despise my life.

“If I were to wash myself with snowAnd cleanse my hands with lye,

“Then I would speak [my defense] and not fear Him;But I am not like that in myself.

‘Should I lift my head up, You would hunt me like a lion;And again You would show Your marvelous power against me.

“Only [O Lord,] do not do two things to me,And then I will not hide myself from Your face:

Whom I, even I, will see for myself,And my eyes will see Him and not another!My heart faints within me.

“Have I rejoiced at the destruction of the enemy [who hated me],Or exulted [in malicious triumph] when evil overtook him?

“Therefore I retract [my words and hate myself]And I repent in dust and ashes.”